This will be a hard post to write but I feel I have to write it. In December 2010 I decided to create Fuck Yeah Clary Fray, a blog for a tumblr fandom that barely existed at the time. It’s been pretty much 4 years since its creation and so much has changed.
If you often visit, you might’ve noticed I don’t really reblog as much as I used to. Today I reached 10,000 followers and I’m so thankful to everyone who follows this blog, new or old. But because I reached that 10,000 it made me realise…I think it’s time for me to go. Or, well, to not really be an active member of the TMI fandom as much.
Don’t get me wrong, FYCF brought me some of the best online friends I’ve ever had, at a time when I was the most lonely. I’ve met some of them in real life, and even slept on a friend’s floor. I had some of the best years on tumblr with FYCF - it used to be the highlight of some of my days. We used to have so much fun in the fandom, and I can’t lie and say that I don’t miss that.
But right now, I don’t feel like I belong anymore. A series of events last year led to this conclusion but I’m not bitter and I don’t hold grudges, I’m just saddened when I look back at it. I used to make text posts all the time on this blog and now…I just don’t feel like I can do that. I feel too out of place. There’s nothing or no one specifically to blame for that, really.
In addition to all of that, I had a medical diagnosis recently that basically changed my life and I can’t be updating a blog like this regularly or even keeping up with any news. I have so many unanswered asks and I’m really sorry about that, but I can’t even keep up with texts from my friends or e-mails from university right now. I’m not purposefully ignoring anyone and never would! <3
I’m mostly making this text post because over the years people have told me how much they love this blog and truthfully, I love it too. I’ve loved running it, I’ve loved talking to everyone and seeing the fandom grow so much, I’ve loved the stupid jokes and casting news and everything else. I know the obvious question is, why not give this blog to someone else? But I just can’t bear to do it, it’s been my little project for so long that it’d just feel wrong.
So it’s not goodbye forever, but it’s goodbye for right now and for the foreseeable future. I might continue to reblog things, but not regularly. I expect I’ll pop up when CoHF is released and if City of Ashes gets the go-ahead/casting news. Other than that though, it’s goodbye and thank you so much for following this blog and thank you for all the years everyone’s messaged me and for the year I got so many happy birthday messages it made me cry. No hard feelings if you want to unfollow me now.
Thank you so much, I owe so much to being a part of the TMI fandom and I’m still so proud of how kind and generous I’ve found you all to be <3
(p.s remember me when it’s Jimon Day or Jack Wayland day)